I'm lying here in bed awaiting a new day and wondering why I'm having so much trouble sleeping lately. I know I have a strange schedule and I know I keep odd hours with work, but I should be able to sleep when I feel tired. I just read three chapters of my History homework and then searched online for some info for my upcoming project. You would think I would be snoring by now!
I really think I get this way when my daughter is with her father. I feel helpless and feel like she needs me. What if she wakes in the night, will he be able to deal with her needs? What if she's hungry or wet, will he take care of her? I know the answer to these questions, but I'm a mother and she's my pride and joy. Without my sweet little angel, I feel lost. I just want to be able to squeeze her anytime I want.
I went shopping with mom today and I always enjoy time with her. We bought Ashlyn a few more clothes, then came home to meet my niece. Claudia, my niece, came to spend the night with us. She is the most hilarious child I know. We went back out to buy her some shoes for church tomorrow and some socks. Luckily we struck gold on our first outing. Sometimes I don't know what her mom is thinking when she packs her clothes! It's cold outside and she packs short sleeve shirts, and for church, a dress and tights that don't match with boots. Need I say more! My child always has matching clothes that are appropriate for the season and I have back up outfits in case of emergency. Sometimes being a mother means being prepared for any obstacle or circumstance that may arrive.
Sorry to ramble, but as I said before, "I'm tired". I can't wait until Tuesday morning because my little ladybug will be back home with me and I'll get to squeeze her! I will hopefully get the signed divorce papers back from her father as well. I'm so tired of this divorce process too. A man can walk out of you and your child's life without batting an eye, not pay child support, and only get her when suitable for him and still have all the rights in the world. I say we live in a messed up society where the punishable get rewarded for their bad behaviors/actions. What is this world coming to? I pray that my daughter will have the very best in life and that her father will start paying his dues to her.
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Monday, January 26, 2009
Incrediably Tired!!
I am so incredibly tired right now! I am writing to keep myself awake for a bit longer because I have to go take care of a major issue.
I worked a twelve hour shift last night. It was the most boring evening I think I have ever worked in the ER. I truly think we saw 20 patients all night! I'm not complaining, I'm just not used to the ER not being very busy.
I usually get my rooms stocked early in the morning when things have slowed down, but last night I was done by 8:30 pm. What a shocker!!!! Then I had no clue what to get myself into, so I decided to try to come up with a topic for my history project. I think I have decided to do my project on the similarities and differences of The Great Depression and the Financial Crisis we are in today. What do you think?
I was sitting there this evening and had an epiphany! I thought to myself, this financial situation is very similar to the Great Depression. During the Great Depression, our country was in war and had been for some time under the reign of Hoover. During this period a new president was elected, Roosevelt, and he had to fix the mess. Very similar to our situation today, right?
So, I start to research the topics and find a ton of information on the Great Depression and today's financial crisis. I was amazed to know just how similar the events are. I'm really excited about writing my paper now, but I may still need a little help. I have been out of the practice of writing papers and hope to be able to present a great paper.
I'll keep you informed on how it goes!
I worked a twelve hour shift last night. It was the most boring evening I think I have ever worked in the ER. I truly think we saw 20 patients all night! I'm not complaining, I'm just not used to the ER not being very busy.
I usually get my rooms stocked early in the morning when things have slowed down, but last night I was done by 8:30 pm. What a shocker!!!! Then I had no clue what to get myself into, so I decided to try to come up with a topic for my history project. I think I have decided to do my project on the similarities and differences of The Great Depression and the Financial Crisis we are in today. What do you think?
I was sitting there this evening and had an epiphany! I thought to myself, this financial situation is very similar to the Great Depression. During the Great Depression, our country was in war and had been for some time under the reign of Hoover. During this period a new president was elected, Roosevelt, and he had to fix the mess. Very similar to our situation today, right?
So, I start to research the topics and find a ton of information on the Great Depression and today's financial crisis. I was amazed to know just how similar the events are. I'm really excited about writing my paper now, but I may still need a little help. I have been out of the practice of writing papers and hope to be able to present a great paper.
I'll keep you informed on how it goes!
Sunday, January 25, 2009
History
Well, I started History class on Wednesday! I was terrified at first but I think I'm really going to enjoy this class.
I was a little late for the first class, three minutes, and I tried to discretely walk in and find the closest empty seat but my professor decided to call me out. I was a little embarrassed! He said, "And you are?" I answered, "Stacy Owens, sir." He said, "Please come to the front of the class." At this moment I thought my world was over, but he just wanted to give me the syllabus. Boy was I ever so happy to know that he wasn't going to make me do something stupid or ask a question I wouldn't know the answer to.
He started class going over the rules and telling a little about himself. It's good to know that he is a father of five, three of which are in college now, and understands the stress of being a college student and surviving the real world at the same time. He says he wants us to ask him questions and talk to him when we don't understand. I was amazed! In my college experiences so far, the professor could care less about who you are and why you are there.
Once he finished going over the basics, he began class. This class is from 6pm-9pm, by the way. He began lecture at 8pm and ten minutes into the lecture a loud pop came from the front of the classroom and then the powerpoint dissappeared from the screen. He was so confused about what was going on. I raised my hand and said, "Sir, I believe the bulb blew. I heard a pop come from the front of the classroom and then your powerpoint disappeared." He said, "Really, you heard a pop? I guess you are correct." Then he said, "Well, I guess I have no reason to hold you any longer so have a good week and I'll see you next Wednesday." I wasn't sure if I was glad or sad. I've never had that feeling in a class before.
I was bummed that we weren't going to get to finish his lecture. He's not the typical boring history professor. I was able to tell he really enjoyed history and he wanted us to really enjoy it too. (It's one of my favorite subjects) So, I really look forward to class next week!
I have to do projects and I'm having a real hard time deciding what I will do it on. If anyone could offer some advice I would appreciate it. The assignment is as follows: A 10 minute oral report. The object of the report will be to provide the historical underpinnings of a current event in order to draw on historical prospective to evaluate a contemporary issue. This should project should be done in powerpoint format. I don't want to present a report on the new President because I'm sure everyone will do that, but I really don't have a clue what other topic to present. I am excited about this project. I know I sound like a dork, but I really enjoy doing this kind of stuff.
Please help!
I was a little late for the first class, three minutes, and I tried to discretely walk in and find the closest empty seat but my professor decided to call me out. I was a little embarrassed! He said, "And you are?" I answered, "Stacy Owens, sir." He said, "Please come to the front of the class." At this moment I thought my world was over, but he just wanted to give me the syllabus. Boy was I ever so happy to know that he wasn't going to make me do something stupid or ask a question I wouldn't know the answer to.
He started class going over the rules and telling a little about himself. It's good to know that he is a father of five, three of which are in college now, and understands the stress of being a college student and surviving the real world at the same time. He says he wants us to ask him questions and talk to him when we don't understand. I was amazed! In my college experiences so far, the professor could care less about who you are and why you are there.
Once he finished going over the basics, he began class. This class is from 6pm-9pm, by the way. He began lecture at 8pm and ten minutes into the lecture a loud pop came from the front of the classroom and then the powerpoint dissappeared from the screen. He was so confused about what was going on. I raised my hand and said, "Sir, I believe the bulb blew. I heard a pop come from the front of the classroom and then your powerpoint disappeared." He said, "Really, you heard a pop? I guess you are correct." Then he said, "Well, I guess I have no reason to hold you any longer so have a good week and I'll see you next Wednesday." I wasn't sure if I was glad or sad. I've never had that feeling in a class before.
I was bummed that we weren't going to get to finish his lecture. He's not the typical boring history professor. I was able to tell he really enjoyed history and he wanted us to really enjoy it too. (It's one of my favorite subjects) So, I really look forward to class next week!
I have to do projects and I'm having a real hard time deciding what I will do it on. If anyone could offer some advice I would appreciate it. The assignment is as follows: A 10 minute oral report. The object of the report will be to provide the historical underpinnings of a current event in order to draw on historical prospective to evaluate a contemporary issue. This should project should be done in powerpoint format. I don't want to present a report on the new President because I'm sure everyone will do that, but I really don't have a clue what other topic to present. I am excited about this project. I know I sound like a dork, but I really enjoy doing this kind of stuff.
Please help!
Friday, January 16, 2009
My Daughter, My Heart
My calling in life is truely being a mother. My daughter, Ashlyn is the light of my life. She is my inspiration to be the very best I can be. She makes me want to reach my goals and pushes me to make every day great. I love her with all my heart.
The day I found out I was going to be a mother was the scariest day of my life. I thought I wouldn't be very good at it, thought I was too selfish, and thought I wasn't ready for such a big change in my life. Boy was I ever so wrong! I am amazing at this wonderful job. (Not to brag) I play, read, rock, sing, and do all of those motherly things that I once made fun of people for doing and I do most of these things on my own.
My husband left us when she was only 3 months old, and at first I thought my world was coming to an end. I now realize it was just begininng. I luckily have wonderful parents who live close. They are amazing people and helped me by allowing us to move in with them until I can sale my house and really get back on my feet. The only problem now, they are so attached to my little lady bug that they tell me I can move out later but she has to stay. Haha, not happening!
I start back to school next week and have a little bit of anxiety about it, but I know I'll be just fine. All I have to think about is setting an example for Ashlyn. I want her to be her very best. I want her to achieve goals for herself and not to let others, especially boys, influence her decisions. I hope I will be able to set those examples for her.
Well, I'm new at this blog stuff so I think I'll try again later! Tell me how I'm doing.
The day I found out I was going to be a mother was the scariest day of my life. I thought I wouldn't be very good at it, thought I was too selfish, and thought I wasn't ready for such a big change in my life. Boy was I ever so wrong! I am amazing at this wonderful job. (Not to brag) I play, read, rock, sing, and do all of those motherly things that I once made fun of people for doing and I do most of these things on my own.
My husband left us when she was only 3 months old, and at first I thought my world was coming to an end. I now realize it was just begininng. I luckily have wonderful parents who live close. They are amazing people and helped me by allowing us to move in with them until I can sale my house and really get back on my feet. The only problem now, they are so attached to my little lady bug that they tell me I can move out later but she has to stay. Haha, not happening!
I start back to school next week and have a little bit of anxiety about it, but I know I'll be just fine. All I have to think about is setting an example for Ashlyn. I want her to be her very best. I want her to achieve goals for herself and not to let others, especially boys, influence her decisions. I hope I will be able to set those examples for her.
Well, I'm new at this blog stuff so I think I'll try again later! Tell me how I'm doing.
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